Friday, February 12, 2010

Artist as Boss


So I had this great talk with Tatyana Mishel today about how there are two parts of me that sometimes battle-- the artist vs. the strict schoolteacher.

Tatyana & I talked about how many of have these two sides in us and with each person, it's different for which one is in control. We have one part of us that is wild with passion and creativity and another part that is more orderly and controlling.

I am a Capricorn with a Scorpio rising, which could be visualized as the woman CEO who is secretly wearing red lingerie under her gray suit.

The artist in me wants to create, to play, to say whatever she wants, to explore any interests and to live life in a way that offers creation, connection, and passion.

My strict schoolteacher side likes things a bit more orderly and structured and reminds me not to lose my head about things. She is the one who holds back, who makes lists, who wants focus focus focus, and who is not too forgiving. I know she wants the best for me, but she's pretty tough with the structure, control and micromanaging of things.

In most cases, I believe she's always a little more in control than my artist self. She is the workaholic father to my dreamer mother. She is the dog that watches the flock of sheep instead of the cat asleep in sun.

Tatyana asked me, "What would happen if you let the artist be boss? How would things be different?'

I thought that was such an insightful questions. What would happen if I let my artist be boss?

So, I'm going to try it out for a while and see what happens (I promise to report any wild, crazy episodes, but knowing myself I'm guessing this will be few and far between, but maybe?)

My question to you is? Who rules in your own self-- your artist or your more structured self? Have you ever tried to turn it around and let the other one lead?

I'm really intrigued by this idea.

I'm giving the artist the lead for a while, we'll see if the dance changes or if I'm just falling into the audience because of my stiletto heels. Either way, it will keep things interesting. I'll let you know how it goes...

6 comments:

Jessie Carty said...

love this idea of trying to let your artist be boss. to keep myself centered i try to do my writing, editing etc days in a very structured manner. whenever i try to just do what i want to do at any given moment i find myself pretty quickly falling right back into old organized patterns.

Inkgirl~ said...

Seconded. My friends are always telling me to stop admiring the way cells look, under the microscope, but to collect the data instead.

sharon said...

Artist is running in a dead heat these days with "Mrs. Structure"! After graduating art school, and putting that on the backburner to raise a family, artist is playing catch up and is back with a vengeance!! About time!!
Thanks for visiting me and your sweet comments, I really appreciate that!
BTW, my brother is a writer living in NYC, published a book of poems, working on his 2nd one.
His name is Bill Rasmovicz.
I would love to become more familiar with your work . I adore your book cover!! I will be back soon. Email me if you can...I have enjoyed some of your poems I've seen here and others you have shared on your other blog.

The Rustic Victorian said...

I just love your blog, I am glad you introduced yourself to me,,,I see you are from my neck of the woods and I look forward to your writing. So many blogs,,,how do you find the time....its all about the time and choices,,,enjoy!
Marcie

Anonymous said...

Well. I may have to try it too! Gooo Kelli!
Tatyana

Star Rockers said...

I have been thinking about this same thing lately! I started a dialogue with my artist and she spoke loud and clear about what she wants and needs. Now it's time to decide whether to listen. How can I not?! And yet... the other part of me keeps saying how foolish... how foolish. I hope the artist wins.

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